Bean

Mon, 12 Mar 2007 00:57:37 GMT

I'm moving to a different username.

http://luhree_love.livejournal.com/ I believe.
We'll see if that works.

Mon, 12 Mar 2007 00:42:23 GMT

se-se-se-secret identities!

Sun, 11 Mar 2007 19:43:56 GMT

hi.

Chad's a lesbian.

bye.

Sat, 10 Mar 2007 20:49:13 GMT

I'm slowly rediscovering my love for MOVEMENT,
and I can't wait for water polo to start since it's the only sport I've gotten into,
but now I kind of wish I had gotten into softball too.

[baseball = my favorite sport..]

Fri, 02 Mar 2007 11:57:22 GMT

I wonder if he's forgotten,
or if I am simply worrying
far, far, far, far too much.

Wed, 31 Jan 2007 19:00:57 GMT

If there's anything more miserable than strept throat,
it's having enough money to finally buy your own car,
and not being able to FIND one.

Mon, 22 Jan 2007 11:44:12 GMT

It's final.

I'm bipolar.

FOR SERIOUSLY.

Sun, 21 Jan 2007 01:29:20 GMT

Heyy.

Today was fully exhausting,
and unsatisfactory.
[Aside from the fact that
I've finally secured a raise.]

We had a meeting at work from 8-9:30.
[Which we got paid for.]
And then I punched in a little over an hour early,
and worked throughout my shift,
plus some.
[9:45am - 6:10pm]

Tomorrow,
I work 8am - 2pm.

I love the hours I've been getting.
[Wednesday: 11-6;
Thursday: 5:45-10;
Today: 8-6:10;
Tomorrow: 8-2;
that's nearly 30 hours. :]]

+-+-+

We've [pretty much] decided
where we're going to live :]
This is going to be SO MUCH FUN.

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OFFICIAL ACCEPTANCE LETTER FROM WAYNE STATE
=
OHHH YEAHHHHH!!

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ps; I don't like the fact,
that my sister's playing house
with someone my age,
who happens to be taking her to prom,
which is bullshit.
BULLSHIT;
BULLSHIT;
BULLfuckingSHIT.

L8-LEE/ATM

Thu, 18 Jan 2007 21:53:30 GMT

Tonight's one of those nights
that just CAN'T get ruined.
It's going to hellz fun,
since we haven't had a sleepover
since New Year's.

It's gonna be movie-ful,
and fun-ful,
and Tony Piscopopoly-ful.

And then tomorrow,
NOBODY has to work,
and NOBODY has to get up
[except me to take my mom to work MAYBE]
andddd,
it'll just be a day of hanging outttt.
[PLUS WE'RE GOING TO OLIVE GARDENNNNN. YUMMY!]

Oh!
And good newZZZZZZZZZZZ!

I'm going to be moving out
within the next couple of months,
and I am SO excited.
I'm for sure going to live with Shane,
my friend/best friend's boyfriend.
Also, his [gay] friend Steve might live with us.
He's gotta talk to him,
but, man,
this sounds like a neat little arrangement.

And I have a feeling I'll be happier
once I'm out of this house.

And we're gonna get an orange kitten,
and name him Cheddar.
YEAH.

I need a car,
and the finances to move,
and I'm GONE.

Also:
New Mexico in March,
Prom in May,
Graduation in June,
and
WAYNE STATE
in the falllllll.

Everything's coming together,
and I am DAMN excited.

:]]]]

Oh,
and Chad..
HE'S PRETTY MUCH AS AMAZING AS A PERSON GETS
WITHOUT A POOFY SCENESTER PIMP JACKET
<3

Mon, 15 Jan 2007 02:11:44 GMT

home.

Sat, 06 Jan 2007 18:57:32 GMT

I'm out here in the dark,
All alone and wide awake,
Come and find me.
I'm empty and I'm cold,
And my heart's about to break,
Come and find me.

I need you to come here and find me,
'Cause without you I'm totally lost,
I've hung a wish on every star,
That hasn't done much good so far.

Tue, 19 Dec 2006 19:14:46 GMT

Hi.
I'm at school.
I don't post in LiveJournal anymore.

My life is twisting.
Upward.
Downward.
All around..-ward.

Christmas is looking exciting,
because I'm done shopping;
I just have to finish with the homemade splendors.

You know how we do!

..I'm done being gay.
Kay, bye.

Happy Tanksgiving! [BOOM!]

Thu, 23 Nov 2006 15:35:51 GMT

Note to Self:
+ Jell-O falls apart.
+ Hair fights back.
+ Eyeliner + Eyeball = Pain
+ Feet - Socks = FROSTBITE

xx.xx

I've been up for too long,
and every task has come undone.
The next hour is for sparing,
and the past hour was for wasting.

I'm ready to be held again.

xxx.xx

Nov. 15 - Dec. 26
=
Holiday Hell

I hate not having family.
I hate not having parents.
I hate not having traditions.

I hate feeling like holidays are like any other day.

xxx.xxx

                               My kids will know REAL holidays.
              My kids will love Thanksgiving and Christmas.
My kids will know what being part of a family feels like.

Fri, 13 Oct 2006 19:53:08 GMT

ERNT. PAIN.

Sun, 01 Oct 2006 04:25:12 GMT

Guess who apparently does black magic.

Guess who can't wait to move out.

Guess who hasn't decided if she's going to homecoming.

Guess who wishes she had someone to cuddle right now.

Guess who wishes she had Root Beer right now.

Guess whose eyes hurt right now.

Guess whose stomach is rebelling and starting a new country.

Yeah.

That'd be Leslie.

Oh,
and guess who wrote a kickass college essay?
[That'd be me, as well. Har.]

Mon, 25 Sep 2006 22:06:06 GMT

10 Random Things About Me...
1. I don't generate body heat so my insides constantly hurt due to my shaking.
2. I hate hugs unless you're one of my favorite people. Chad, Colleen, Dani, and SOMETIMES Chelsea can hug me. Otherwise I am repulsed by your arms being around me. I don't know why. It just.. feels like acid.
3. Before I go to bed, I put my blanket in the dryer for five minutes.
4. I love homework when I have nothing else to do.
5. I have officially fallen in love with the Taco Bell 1/2 pound beef & potato burrito minus red sauce, plus nacho cheese. :]
6. For some reason, when Chad mentioned it, I said I wanted to be a Saint Bernard. [I was lying. I would HATE to have to save people, they can fucking jump off a cliff for all I care.]
7. I write poetry because I THINK I'm good at it.
8. I'm terrified of sharing my poetry, but I love it when people push me to do so. It's so personal, but sometimes it just.. explains me.
9. I miss my brother.
10. I'm going to die alone.

9 Ways To Win My Heart...
1. Tease me. You know you like it.
2. Tickle me, whether I want you to or not.
3. Come over early in the morning because you couldn't wait until later to see me.
4. Hold my handdd.
5. Tell me I look cute, NOT sexy. That is SO lamerz.
6. Buy me a taco from Taco Bell as opposed to a three course meal from some restaurant I can't pronounce.. my stomach really isn't very big.
7. Laugh at me AND with me.
8. Let me tease you. It means I like you. :]
9. Do NOT press your beliefs into my skull.

8 Things I Carry/Wear Everyday...
1. teh_cellul0rz.
2. keyyyyys.
3. Undergarments.
4. PANTELONES.
5. wallettttt.
6. zapatos.
7. s0ckz.
8. some form of shirt.

7 Things That Annoy [The Piss Out Of] Me...
1. people who talk on their cellulars in the drive-thru.
2. Skanky girls. GET A JOB SOMEWHERE OTHER THAN EIGHT MILE.
3. Any kind of soda from Dani's. [It tastes flatttt.]
4. the cost of college tuition.
5. my lameass hair.
6. COURTNEY
7. My mother, more than anything on the planet.

6 Places I've Visited...
1. Canada.
2. Worst Vagina.
3. Chicago.
4. Ohio?
5. Uh..
6. No clue.

5 Things I Want To Do Before I Die...
1. Cannabalize my left leg.
2. Kill an enemy of mine.
3. Ram into the side of fifty or so cars.
4. Run away from the cops and hide in a cave.
5. be good at something.

4 Things I'm Afraid Of...
1. Dani's wrath.
2. John still being alive.
3. leaving for collegeee.
4. Peter.

3 Things I Do Everyday...
1. Sleep?
2. Internet.
3. Eat.

2 Things I'm Trying Not To Do Right Now...
1. Go outside and wait for Colleen..
2. Ernt. Shoosh.

1 Person I Want To See Right Now...
1. Marky.

Sun, 24 Sep 2006 13:43:56 GMT

Due to the abandonment by all my friends,
and the huge punch in the stomach that I got yesterday,
I kind of wish this weekend had never happened.

Another thing;
I really want to kill some people in the face,
for being unappreciative little pricks.

And finally,
when the HELL am I going to START on my homework?

Thu, 21 Sep 2006 20:53:02 GMT

This college essay is going to kick my ass,
but it's what I need to write about.

Sun, 17 Sep 2006 07:22:34 GMT

Look! I'm a dragon!

---

I am down with the sickness.
GRAR.

Sat, 16 Sep 2006 18:47:13 GMT

Johns Hopkins has won my heart.
I'll cross my fingers to get in.
And when I do, I'm gone.

I really am hoping I get in.
Now that I've found where I want to go,
I guess I have this huge sense of motivation to get there.

It's slightly enlightening.

Maybe I'll put that into my essay.
Hah.

Other than Johns Hopkins,
I'm applying to Wayne State,
the University of Michigan - Ann Arbor,
and Boston College.

I'm setting myself up for a great fall
with Johns Hopkins and Boston College.

And apparently just APPLYING to these colleges
is going to cost me $200.

FUCK. ME. IN. THE. ASS.

----

I've reangled my interests.
I'm going to be a surgeon or a medical examiner.
Cutting people up as long as they're not awake.
I could NEVER deal with awake patients,
which is why I couldn't ever be a family doctor. :]

----

On the home front,
things are becoming a bit less shaken up.
But right before the earthquake,
you have an enormous sense of stillness.

I'm not ready for something to happen again.

----

I love my new icon. :]

Loving school this much can NOT be healthy.

Fri, 15 Sep 2006 19:47:06 GMT

I am in the process of choosing my super villian name.
I've got my crime planned out.

I will bring some rope, a laser pen,
and an alarm disarmer.

I will disarm the Troy Athens alarm.

I will tie the rope around a beam
and my waist.

I will drop in through the ceiling tiles,
and into Mrs. Chan's room.

I will fall to the floor in a fit of joy.

I will run to the cabinet,
and open the doors.

Inside will be the treasure I seek.

As I am escaping,
I will shine the laser pen in the janitor's eyes.

It will be the perfect crime.

---

I REALLY miss my mathing.
I need it to survive.
Without it, I can not breathe.
I can not function.

I will get that book.
WATCH ME.

Tue, 12 Sep 2006 20:50:22 GMT

Two Things:

1. You'd think I was happier.
2. You'd be wrong.

Tue, 12 Sep 2006 10:45:45 GMT

Ernt.
I'll give it a chance.

Sat, 09 Sep 2006 14:45:51 GMT

I decided so much last night while I was laying on the concrete,
waiting for Shane's band to hop on stage, and bust out some tunes.
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
I decided that one day
I want a lot of the songs I hear on the radio
to remind other people of me.
It's an odd hope and I realize that,
but I want to be important..
Well, I am important,
but I mean THAT important to someone.
You catch my drift.. right?
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
I decided that I've been okay lately.
Lately as in, the past three days,
even if I haven't been acting that way.
I've been smiling,
and not hating things quite as much.
Here and there,
a problem with myself or my surroundings will surface,
but I'm getting better at handling them..
Or at least I think so.
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
I decided that
I want to be a more clean version of me
by the end of this year.
How many times am I going to say that,
and quickly decide that the idea scares me?
A million and one,
but the decision is never going to fade
until it is accomplished,
and the fear is never going to fade,
but I can press through it.
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
I decided not to give up until my feelings fade,
but to shift my manuevers around.
Maybe being less.. crazy.. will work,
and being less pessimistic.
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
I decided in the long run,
I'll be okay this year no matter what.
Next year, sure, is a different story,
but eh.
I can do it for now.
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
I decided it's time to start writing again.

Wed, 06 Sep 2006 10:29:06 GMT

Just so you know,
TODAY IS COLLEEN ROSE KELLY'S SEVENTEENTH BIRTHDAYYYYYYY!!!!!

Wish her a happy one, and give her a kiss on the check, DAWG.

&hearts; :]
She's way cooler than you.
JUST SO YOU KNOW.

Thank you & have a nice day.